Newark New Jersey  Jan 27th 1869 To day I do not feel very  well though I slept all night last night. Maggie  is very sick and I am in her room watching her. Anita and Miss Sinsley are in the parlor sewing. I have been thinking if I should not live and since Dora died life has looked very uncertain to me, and an adjusstment of all our temporal affairs so as to care our friends anxiety and trouble desirable. So I am going to make out a list of my effects and wha I desire to have done with them and leave it where some of  you will find it and I  feel sure Father and the  rest will respect it as much as if it was a Will made  out according to forms of Law.  Mr. Clark has in his hands in Oregon in Cash   gold  1000.00 The land on the river  gold 1001.00 The house Mr. Carter bought gold 800.00 With Doras Money there is  gold 500.00 Father has greenbacks   400.00 Albert has greenbacks  for which I have no note 600.00 R.F. Murrey has greenbacks 300.00     1800.00 From Doras Estate there is due since little George died in Gold which is in Uncle J.H. Wilbur hands  1500.00   I desire that my dear friend Frances C. Yale for whom I have only held the money in trust to have in gold or its equivalent   1000.00 Doras beloved husband James M. Quinlan to have in gold   500.00 and if it does not reach me in time the interest for one year on  2500.00 in gold to defray   230.00 the expenses of Doras Ilnes  amp;c My dear Sisters Anita  amp; Mary Waters to have divided equally between then the land on the river in Corvallis I inherited from George and I advise them to keep it for several years and to get Mr. Clark and Uncle to advise with them about it    1001.00 Also in cash gold to Anita and Mary equally    1000.00 Also watch for Anita    100.00  To the children of my ever kind and much loved Friends D.G. amp; Elizabeth Clark of Corvallis Oregon   gold  300.00 To Eddie  100.00 A ring for Mrs. Clark To Lulu 100.00   amp; a watch-guard for M e, To Jennie 100.00  Clark ornamented     from my hair. The remainder of the money to be given to my brother Albert after he has given a sufficient sum to Father and Mother to defray their expense on a visit to Aunt Susan Bennett and the expense of my sickness  amp; Funeral and a suitable stone to mark my grave which I wish to be near my mother I do not want an expensive stone My box of goods in Oregon I wish sent to Anita and Mary  
        to be theirs excepting Miss Cases Portrait I wish to be given back to her Fathers Portrait and frame to be given dear Albert and Doras to Mr. Quinlan if Mrs. Norton sends it. My Hymn Book to my old friend Will Clarke  amp; 4 volumes of my blue  amp; gold books to his sister Mary E. Clarke. To my cousins each  a memento of one of my books or something the dear sisters think best. To Anita and Mary all my clothes to do as they think best giving Miss Case Mary Maggie and Nell something that was mine. Mrs. Clark in Oregon to have the carpet I left on her floor and all the other  articles I did not intend to bring home in the box excepting the cane seated arm chair which was Georges and that I want Wallace Baldwin to have I should like Anita and Mary to pay yearly  10.00 apiece for the support of preaching in the M.E. Church in Corvallis for ten years. To my dear Aunt Chambers and Aunt Susan I wish the girls would give something that they will like that was mine. I am afraid Albert will not have as much in money as  the rest but tell him I love him and think perhaps if the House in Corvallis should come back into our hands his share will equal the girls any way he is a man and it is easier for him to get on in the world I should like if Mr Tom Akin has the negatives of my pictures and George that a copy he made and done in India ink for  Uncle Harvey  amp; Aunt Lucretia are always remembered with the warmest gratitude. I write this for fear of what may come  amp; yet I am  not afraid In the love of Christ I put my  trust and through him I shall go to the dear ones in his Arms when my Earth work is done.  Susie M. Waters There are many others of whom I think with love Susie Barry Emma South  and my dear sister child Millie Gorman beside many of my Oregon friends of whom I have no mentioned by name.